Thursday, December 30, 2010

Is this Crazy?

I have so many hopes and dreams for my life.  Right now I am living my dream...I am able to stay at home with my wonderful little girl!  I love it, and I want nothing more!

But, I also have a job that I love.  I am an OB/Labor and Delivery nurse and I love my job!  Don't get me wrong, I love my little girl, but some days...I miss my job.  Every two weeks, I get to go play nurse for two shifts...and by the end of my two shifts, I am ready to be off for two weeks! ;)  But I have a dream to one day get my certificate in Midwifery and be a CNM.  Some days that responsibility scares the heck out of me and I just want to stay a lowly nurse and follow orders...and some days I want my CNM so badly!  But then I remind myself that I am living my dream by staying home!  Why would I throw 10's of thousands of dollars into a degree that I don't want to use for many years to come!  There is no way that I want to be on call 24/7 and have to work AT LEAST 5 days a week at this point!!!  I am just getting started on my family!  Work should be the last thing on my mind!

Then, the even crazier thoughts come.  Call me insane, but I would LOVE to open an online store!  Of course, I would want cloth diapers and accessories...but also other mommy, baby, pregnancy, breastfeeding, etc items!  It is one of those fantasies that is totally nuts but I could totally see myself doing!

Yikes!  Am I certifiable?  Or just a "dream big" kind of girl?

1 comment:

  1. I am a nurse too and love my job. Nursing is the greatest career in the world. We can help to contribute to the stability of our families and still have time to raise our children and be with them. Nursing also allows us to do other things we love such as blogging and opening online stores.

    God bless you, I know you will accomplish great and rewarding things in your future. Happy new year. Jana Following from Social Parade.